MY FAMILY

firstly i need to introduce my self..

starting from now,this is my link to express my stress and feeling...

my name is syahme..

my age gonna be 21 years old this 22/12/2008

i'm the youngest of 4 brother and sister.i'm in my final year for my diploma technology in medical labratory.in november insyallah i will be doing my practical at a secret hospital.

this is my life.a really interesting and adventures as it sounds..

but beneath every smile that u see in me there is a secret that i have to hide and fear of..

and that is the secret that i hold to show the world that my life is perfect and balance.whether its for my family or my friend.But the true is i never tought that i my family members have a horor secret and can destroy my life at once.the phase have just started ,now i'll have to suck all the pain and shamefullness about my family.If u can see in the picture i'm wearing a grey T -shirt,beside me was my sister at my right is my mother and brother.I never tought that everyone of them hiding a horrible secret from me and my family.But god are to kind and one day someone sms me and show me a video .at that time my tounge was numb my heart are broken.How could they do like that?? how i'm gonna face it,and keep pretending infront of them that i don't know the truth.If its wasnt because they are my family,i would just leave and forget about them.But because they are my family so i have to stay put beside them and keep pretending infront of everbody that there are no secret in my family.If it's not because of me who else they gonna depend on??that's the function of a family members.I will try to protect and keep the secret from anyone else as long as i can.But it wont be the same cause day by day my heart are broken into pieces.Why i have to be the one who knows everything ??I wont say my life suck,my life is the greatest thing ever happen to me THANKS to god.but now its just about acting and exra carefullness just to protect the secret from outsider.

Maybe everyone that read this blog will think what is the secret???

the answer is inside your heart,because no one is perfect and can stay clean their whole life.

we all makes mistake and have a secret to hide weather it's small or big.But deep inside our mind and heart we wish we could turn back time and wash out all our sins and bad thing we do in our past life.Regret is the best word for it,but as time goes by our memory will stay alive inside our mind but not as strong as it before.Life will goes on,like a water flows in the river .And our experience will guide us to face worse and best situation in the future.

And that is my life right now..