My Best Friend & My Love

This is just a bit of my life story

Friendship is something that i can imagine it would be,i think i can't live without my bestfriend.They the person that always there beside me when i have problems and seek for advise or in sadness.I Have been friend with them for 13 years and that was a big numbers cause it's show how well we know each other and knows all our secret that have been kept by us deep inside our mind.There have been some tragedy happen to me like my registration day azmi whos the one accompany me ,when i'm in hospital due to my tumor at my back of neck operation they the one accompany me and calm me and when my ex girlfriend try to commit suicide well that really proof that they are my true friend.Along this all tremendous tragedy and sad story we all getting closer and know each other flaws + specialties .Thanks to god for bringing us together



I meet my best friend azmi since standard 5,but at that point of life we kinda not knowing the meaning of bestfriend.What we know is that we are a click that do stuff together and live like there is no tomorow.But through out our life lots of thing happen especially when at high shcool because we getting closer and backing up each other even sometimes we fight and argue a lot but in the end we still bestfriend.The harder it get the better and the stronger our relation become.But the most funniest moment on our life is when at form 4 & 5 .We have a friend name Noramin,well basically at that time azmi kinda have been bullied by noramin a lot even noramin was 10 times smaller then him and i was like encourage noramin to do so.Kinda bad ass right,but it all was in azmi willing i guess.Through out that 2 years there a lot of funny thing happen to noramin and we became the witnesses ,but in the end of form5 at the last day of SPM noramin break up our friendship just because we call his home phone number.Yeah i know what a jerk,are u 5 years old boy? i bet you are noramin.When everyone ask ,we just answer with pride and sincerely .Then people keep laughing when meeting him it became one of the biggest joke of that years.After SPM finish azmi and me work together at burger king,but then he got an offer studying at UiTM Melaka for diploma in buisness and i study at PTPL Shah Alam in diploma medical laboratory.But that not stopping our friendship,we do meet and sometime i go and visit azmi at melaka that what true friend do.





Her name was Saida Putri,we start become friend when we at form 4.Firstly she was kinda quite person,but after finish high school we start to get closer i introduce her to a better job and guide her with all of her girls problem and protect her from stranger.Kinda couple but that what we are.Well saida and azmi knows most of my secret and the detail on what ever happen in my life,because they the one i call if i have problem.

This is My love,wanna why?.Here the story goes,Firstly his name was black because most of his body hair is black an easy name to be call right.He starting to became my pets since i'm at form 4
on years 2003 so approximately Black has became my pet for about 9 years .They day he came at my house ,at that time he was hungry and kinda wild.With his eyes and voice i attract to him.Then decide to kept him,but not in home just a pet outside the house.Because my sister have asthma ,and i don't want he to pee inside my house.So starting that day until now every time i open the door in morning Black will be the one who at the front and kissing my legs,and i can't never live without him.He is legend for me,the one and only cat that i ever manage to kept alive for 9 years even he broke his leg,have injuries,scratch my finger,bite my legs,bite my sister leg and pee at my dad cars.My life would not be perfect without seeing him everyday.

And here some of the memories me and my best friend have done .Saida always hang out with me most of the time.We are the outgoing person,enjoy movies and hangout at starbucks


Azmi and me enjoying our time with saida at genting theme park,miss it very much.Hope there a lots more things we will been through together.Wish all the best to you guys that have support and being my friend all this time our journey will never end.

Tired & Bored

For once in my life,i wish that i don't have to meet anybody i knew in this world and answer the question that hurt me the most 'Have you got a job?' .I think i've already answer it more then thousand time,sometimes i just wanna scream to everyone 'shut up ,just please shut up!'.It's very depressing and making me outta of my mind,maybe it seem like a minor problem for others.I have try my best,i search and ask .Not being choosy but have to if u gonna work for long time ,i want it to be suitable.If i just grab anything i know in the end i will be crazy,better i work for something that i like and willing to.There even some of my friend keep pushing me do something that i don't want to,like working as telemarketing and customer service.Well at first i declined generously ,because it's not worth it.The workplace far from home,whos gonna send me to work?there no public transport and the salary wont enough to support the taxi charge.I've been working since i have finish high shcool,i start by mopping floor and taking out the garbage at burger king at KLCC .It was an embarrassing moment for me,everyone see me take out the dustbin out from burger king to the lower level.Then i try working at 7-Eleven,there i learn how to work on shift schedule & to be take care myself from robbers.So please to all my friend ,don't easily judging me if i declined all the rough labor work offer . Why because i have experienced it,i realize that it's not worth it for me right now to work my ass out for RM400 per month salary.Now i have diploma in Medical Laboratory Technology,it's can help me find a better job.Maybe it will take a longer time but i rather wait and suffer better then working again at burger king or 7-Eleven not because it's embarrassing but because it's just not relevant for me to work there anymore.And telemarketing,come on i don't want to answer a call if someone wanna sell me something & believe me i'm not good in selling stuff better then selling myself.But in the end i realize and have to accepted that not everyone knows what i feel and what i'm going through right now.So i have to answer that painful question,even it's really making me tension,mad and depressed .I just wish that everyone kinda forgot to ask me the question and talk about others thing,it will help my blood pressure back to normal level.So to whoever read this Please,i beg u guys don't ask me that question.Honestly it's kinda begin to be personal,and if i've got a job i would gladly told everybody without avoiding or try to change the subject.I pray to god i will get a suitable and good job for better future.

Back To Nature

It all start on one night,after i got back from wedding event and dating someone that reject me . I feel very frustrated,exhausted,sleepy & misery.But suddenly my friend call that night and ask me if i would like to come and visit him the next day.Even i was like no mood to talk or to meet anyone ,i just put my smile face and ask him the direction. The next day,i woke up at 8 am and get ready to go somewhere i never been to .But before that must have my breakfast first after taking shower,breakfast is important it give our body a kick start in the morning and boost our metabolism

.Then i take a train to KL and change train that go to my friend place,at first i'm kinda skeptical about the train .Well i never been there & i'm afraid if i take the wrong train,suddenly there a guy walk to me and ask me for direction.I answer with confident and smile,even my mind kinda not sure where am i going.After waiting for 15 minutes the train arrived ,suddenly my heart pumping plus due to the adrenaline rush.I sit nearby the windows ,so i can see at what station the train stop.





I admit that actually i'm trying to run from all my problem , i just can't stand it people treating me like garbage sometimes & it's hurting me + now i'm jobless,can continue my study,got no where to go,my friend kinda busy all the time.So this is kinda a break for me,go somewhere that nature is still fresh and available because even that i'm born in the city but my heart and mind prefer living in the rural area where nature grows wild and rapidly .So that's why i say yes to my friend when he ask me to visit him ,i need this more then anything.




Then the operator mention the train gonna start moving and enjoy the ride.After the train move out from KL i feel like i'm on a journey to find calm and peacefull in my heart and mind.A long the journey i found nature ,the green grass and tree no road .Even the journey take a long time ,but i'm glad because i know i will enjoy the view a long the trail.





After 20 minutes i have pass Putrajaya and few other town,my mind start to thing what should i do with my life right now?what is the best solution?.I'm not ready to make a commitment but i'm lonely,i'm ready to start working but i still didn't get a suitable job,i wanna be healthy and strong again like before but i'm to lazy to workout.Why there always an answer or reason that i give for all this question in my mind.Sometime i feel like dying because i don't know what to do,i was an active person before suddenly i have nothing to do and became lazy like bears .Even i hate it so much and can't accept it ,in the end it leave me no choice.



Then i realize i have to start from the base like before,i must accepted that i was fat lazy person within this period and i must change little by little so my mind would not get shock with the result and force i put to myself to change this bored and worthless life.




Then i heard sound of the operator talking ,we are now arriving at ....... please disembark now.Firstly i kinda not sure about it,am i at the right station?suddenly the station name board appear right in front of me nearby the window where i sit at.I urgently get out from the train and find my exit.




Right in front the train station,my friend already waiting in his car.The journey took me 30 minutes to arrive but then i enjoy it because the cozyness and great view.Feel so excited ,i'm out of KL ,then my friend took me around the place and show his house.He just move in so there no other then just a bed and news paper + his laptop.Yes it's very bored there,then i ask him lets go out and eat i'm hungry.Before going out for lunch he show me the easiest way to come to his place if i wanna visit next time.I was like yes,yes,yes but in my mind i don't even remember anything,but he talk like he really hope i will come visit again.Then i said why not if i just take the train it's much more easier and faster + cheaper ,and he said yeah correct then we laugh to each other that conversation was going no where .




After 30 minutes drive we arrive at the restaurant and next to it was a movie theater.We both agreed to watch movie after lunch.So we split,i go buy the movie ticket and he reserve a place in the restaurant.After 10 minutes lining up in front the movie theater to buy the ticket,at last i got it.Then i walk inside the restaurant to find my friend,we sit nearby the windows the scenery was lovely.We eat nachos with sour sauce and ice lemon tea (My Favourite drink) for our appetizer.





My stomach already kinda full,so i take a break first then i continue eating my main cost a special cook chicken with potatoes chip and honey cream.It taste sweet and sour and the chip just make it more delicious ,after eat we talk about future and gadget as always.After a while body give signal to go pee because of to much drinking ice lemon tea.We pay the bill and go to the movie theater ,go to the toilet then prepare to watch the movie ,title A-Team.The movie was awsome packed with action,humor and romance.I give 3 star for it,after done watching movie.It's time for me to get back,even i have to change train and took bus back to my home.I think it's worth it,that day i feel like i'm free from any problem and distraction.Nobody know me and feels like i was a brand new person.Even my problem still not solve but it help a lot in solving my misery and tension in this short period.Lastly i shake my friend hand and say thanks for inviting me here.So happy and gladly i come here visiting u,my mood have change .I don't feel so moody anymore and willing to accept my life as it is and keep trying for the best in what i think the best for me.

When i arrived at home,i get ready to go to bed.Before i sleep i make a wish,i hope this is the beginning of my long journey from small to bigger journey.Then i fall a sleep with a smile on my face.It may kinda bored for some of u that have read my blog,but this is me one of the kind person.

My Dream Gadget

Aku mula jatuh cinta terhadap benda yang digelar 'Gadget' ini semenjak aku berusia 13 tahun apabila aku mula mempunyai radio sendiri di biliku.Aku sukakan muzik dari barat hinggalah ke timur,kemudian apabila aku mula memasuki usia belasan tahun dan melalui zaman remaja .Aku giat aktif melakukan aktiviti luar seperti bermain badminton,pergi tuisyen dan melepak dirumah kawan-kawan.Pada zaman itu MP3 belum lagi wujud dan yang paling terbaru dan canggih ialah cakera padat(CD) ,namun aku tidak berkemampuan untuk memilikinya lagipun waktu itu minda aku lebih ke permainan komputer kerana ia satu kegilaan bagi remaja sewaktu itu.Tapi dah takdir,satu hari aku ke KLCC bersama keluarga aku ,kemudian mama singgah di Watson sebuah kedai serbaneka.Aku tidak berminat memasukinya namun aku tertarik dengan satu benda didalam nya ,kelihatan sebuah pemain kaset iaitu 'WalkMan' berjenaman AIWA .Aku mula meratapinya dan melihat segala inci alat itu.Dalam hatiku berkata canggih,kemudian aku melihat harganya......wow rm58 sahaja....!walaupun aku masih tidak pandai dalam segi kewangan namun aku tahu jumlah itu tidak begitu tinggi.Kemudian tiba sahaja dirumah aku mula mencari alternatif untuk mengumpul duit dan mencari idea untuk mendapatkan alat yang menjadi impian aku ketika itu.Namun aku gagal ,biasalah remaja asyik enjoy duit dgn beli komiks dan permainan video serta makanan.Aku pun mula lupa dengan 'WalkMan' itu ,tiba-tiba suatu hari aku mendapat berita gembira apabila mama dengan sukacitanya ingin membelikan aku 'WalkMan' itu untuk aku dengan alasan mama ada duit lebih.Aku begitu bersyukur dengan rezeki yang dilimpahkan kepada diriku ini oleh Allah S.W.T.,apabila dapat sahaja 'WalkMan'itu dintangan aku.Terus aku mencapai kaset untuk dimainkan,itulah pertama kali aku menyumbatkan earphone kedalam telinga aku.Sedapnya lagu ini,kemudian aku mula mengumpul pelbagai kaset dari pelbagai artis.Dari situ aku mula bijak menggunakan alatan yang digelar 'Gadget' ,dari situ juga aku mula mengenali yang radio ada pelbagai frekuensi dan stesen.selang beberapa tahun kemudian aku membeli 'WalkMan' baru jenama aiwa.Pada tahun 2002 aku dapat hadiah 'WalkMan' Sony ,canggih dan smart walaupun zaman 'DiscMan' dah bermula.Aku tidak pedulikannya kerana aku hanya mampu membeli kaset berbanding CD yang begitu mahal sewaktu itu.Namun zaman berubah dan juga begitu 'Gadget' ,tahun 2003 kebanyakan rakan-rakan sekolah mempunyai telefon bimbit semuanya jenama NOKIA.Aku tidak mampu membelinya namun aku bersyukur kakak aku mampu jadi aku tidka begitu ketinggalan dalam dunia serba canggih ini kerana aku reti menggunakan telefon bimbit.Selepas SPM aku bekerja dan membeli telefon bimbit sendiri,zaman itu telefon bimbit berkamera baru muncul.aku hanya mampu beli yang tiada camera dan tiada warna 2100.Apabila memasuki kolej aku menukar telefon bimbit kepada NOKIA 3100 ,kualiti gambar dan bunyinya 5 bintang.Puas hati membelinya,namun jodoh tak panjang sewaktu aku jogging ak tinggalkan dibawah tempat duduk motor kawan aku .Bila balik dari jogging ada minachi datang katanya ada orang mencuri barangan dibawah tempat duduk motor kawan.Aku redha je,kawan aku dah separuh gila.Jauh disudut hati aku mencaci minachi itu,kalau dah nampak takkan tengok je kot telefonlah polis atau jerit meminta tolong.Tapi aku paham perempuan lemah sedikit dan mudah panik,aku pun pulanglah dengan muka sedih tapi hati aku tak sedih seperti aku tahu yang aku akan dapat penggantinya.Hampir 2bulan aku tidak memiliki telefon bimbit,semua orang tidak dapat menghubungi aku seronok hidup .Aku lebih ceria tiada panggilan dan message dari individu-individu asing yang cuba mengenali aku.(Budget Hot sekejap) Hehehehe.


Namun pada tahun 2007 ada ura-ura mengatakan APPLE sebuah company yang berjaya mengjenamakan semula companynya dengan teknologi baru dari Amerika Syarikat,ingin mengeluarkan telefon bimbit dan mendapat kritikan hebat dari pelbagai pihak serta pujian.Pada penghujung 2007 lahirlah sebuah telefon yang dinamakan iPhone 2G(Second Generation) mulanya aku tidak tertarik kerana prepaid tidak boleh digunakan bersama iPhone ini ,jadi aku kekalkan minat terhadap NOKIA sebuah jenama yang tidak asing dimalaysia.Namun pada suatu hari aku ke cybercafe .Rumah ada komputer tapi internet tidak mampu dilanggan,lagipun zaman tu internet bukanlah satu keperluan sangat.Aku melawati laman web APPLE,memang canggih websitenya teratur berserta video cara mengguna.Tapi aku tidak mampu jadi lupakan sahaja,penghujung 2008 iPhone 3G mula dijual.
Pada masa itu minat aku mula timbul,kerana ia bukan sekadar telefon bimbit tapi ia mempunyai pelbagai aplikasi lain berbading jenama NOKIA,SAMSUNG,SONY ERICSSON.Dan yang penting internetnya laju dan mudah dilayari kerana teknologi sentuhnya yang canggih.


Pada bulan July 2009 ,iPhone 3Gs dilancarkan kelebihannya dari segi camera dan OS3.0 (software),minat aku bertambah seribu kali ganda,walaupun aku sudha memiliki telefon bimbit yang mempunyai camera dan boleh memainkan MP3 dengan baik tapi aku tetap menaruh minatterhadap iPhone seperti cinta pandang pertama.Tiba-tiba satu hari aku terlihat iPod Touch 1G(generasi Pertama) milik rakanku,Canggih sama seperti iPhone cuma tidak boleh Call,SMS dan mengambil gambar.Harganya pun murah rm994 sahaja berbanding iPhone rm2490,jadi aku pun tekad membeli iPod bersama sahabat baik aku Saida Putri



Cantikkan?
Aku bersyukur kepada Allah s.w.t. kerana akhirnya aku dapat membeli iPod Touch 2G(Generasi Kedua)kelebihannya ada bluetooth,pembesar suara dan kelajuan pemprosesan maklumat kerana dibina dari mikrocip baru.Semenjak itu ,aku mula pakar mengenai iTunes dan aplikasi-aplikasi yang dijual didalam iTunes serta koleksi MP3 aku lebih teratur dan menarik.Bagi aku sehari tanpa iPod amat membosankan jika keluar rumah pasti iPod menjadi teman untuk bermain games,mendengar lagu ,menonton movie ataupun melayari internet(Facebook).Dan kini setelah aku mendapat diploma aku boleh mula bekerja dan mengumpul duit untuk membeli 'Gadget' yang aku idamkan iaitu iPhone.Ia seperti suatu obsessi,namun pada aku ia ialah suatu impian kerana bukan semua orang yang membelinya tahu cara menggunakannya dan secara logiknya dunia semakin canggih jika kita tidak mahu mempelajari teknologi baru maka ketinggalanlah negara dan diri sendiri dari arus teknologi yang senantiasa berkembang setiap masa.Dengan lahirnya pelbagai alatan yang membantu kehidupan serta memudahkan kehidupan manusia,kehidupan kita bertambah teratur dan jurang antara manusia dari satu tempat ke tempat lain dapat dikurangkan.Sememangnya ada kebaikkan dan keburukkan dari teknologi ini namun ia semua ditentukan oleh individu intu sendiri untuk menggunakannya mengikut kehendak hati masing-masing.Semoga cita-citaku tercapai.......

Seperti Hidup Tanpa Harapan

Pada 19/2/2010 aku tiba-tiba demam,pada mulanya aku sangka demam biasa.Tapi apabila aku sudah sampai ke singapura dan berjumpa sahabatku disana.badan aku mula lemah dan tidak bermaya seperti tubuhku dipenuhi batu-bata menyebabkan aku tidak boleh bangun dan terbaring di katil seperti menunggu maut.Pada keesokan paginya aku pulang ke Kuala Lumpur dan terus ke hospital untuk mendapatkan rawatan.Hari pertama dihospital aku langsung tidak mampu untuk makan dan minum hanya baring keletihan.Hari kedua bacaan platelet aku menurun ke paras 90mikroliter,kemudian hari ketiga turun lagi ke paras 50 mikroliter. Doktor mula menasihatkan agar aku mengambil pelbagai buah-buahan untuk menaikkan jumlah platelet aku.Pada hari keempat ,rakan sekerja mama datang dan memberi cadangan agar aku diberi sup daun betik dan sup belut.Kemudian ibuku mendengar cadangan rakannya dan mula memberi aku sup daun betik yang sungguh pahit itu(Tuhan aje yang tahu)aku dipaksa telan sup daun betik dan makan sup belut.Kemudian sakit perut cirit-birit,terus hilang selera dan tidak bermaya.Hasil dari amalan minum sup daun betik itu jumlah platelet aku berjaya naik ke paras 45mikroliter selepas jatuh pada paras 40mikroliter.Keesokkan harinya pada hari selepas diambil darah ,keputusan menunjukkan platelet aku jatuh ke paras 20mikroliter ( jumlah platelet pada paras 80-100 harus dirawat segera dalam unit rawatan rapi untuk mengelakkan pendarahan organ dalaman) doktor mula mencadangkan aku menjalani tranfusi darah dalam bentuk Fresh Frozen Plasma yang dicairkan pada suhu badan kemudian ditransfusi ke dalam tubuh pesakit.Syukur transfusi darah tu tidak menyakitkan,namun aku mula mendapat reaksi transfusi badan aku mula gatal-gatal dan hati aku mula membengkak.Aku sukar untuk tidur dan bernafas ,pada malam itu doktor mula memberi aku tranfusi vitamin untuk menggalakkan penghasilan platelet dalam tubuh aku.Mulanya aku tidak rasa sakit sewaktu tranfusi vitamin itu,namun setelah lama sedikit rasa seperti paku dimasukkan dalam salur darah aku ini.Aku hanya mampu menggenggam erat selimut dan bantal untuk menahan kesakitan.Hari keenam platelet aku jatuh bawah paras 10 mikroliter dan hidung aku mula berdarah,doktor memberi amaran jika paras paltelet tidak naik maka aku akan dibawa ke unit rawatan rapi dimana peluang aku hanya tinggal 50/50 sahaja kemudian malam itu kakak aku menelefon aku.Dia memberitahu yang mama menangis bimbangkan nyawa aku diambang maut dan berharap aku sembuh secepat mungkin.Malam itu aku berdoa agar tuhan panjangkan nyawaku dan sembuhkan aku dari penyakit ini.

Pada hari ke
tujuh hari terakhir aku dihospital,doktor menyampaikan berita gembira yang platelet aku mula meningkat(Alhamdulillah)dan aku boleh pulang kerumah.Dengan gembiranya aku mula mengemas pakaian dan barangan dan berangkat pulang.Dalam sejarah hidup aku ini adalah kali kedua aku berhadapan dengan maut,aku amat bersyukur aku berjaya melawan virus denggi ini walaupun selang beberapa minggu kemudian salah seorang artis tanah air meninggal dunia akibat denggi berdarah.Apa akan berlaku jika aku lewat mendapatkan rawatan dan tidak berada di hospital.Segala dugaan yang diberi dariMu aku redha menghadapinya Ya Allah Ya TuhanKu.

31 march 2009 .the day my result been release at college.As usual my target is 3.50 and above,but my CPGA is dropping to 2.93.At that time my heart is beating faster than ever,i can't believe that it happen.But then i'm glad that i'm not failling and already finish my study,hournestly i can't accept it untill now.My plan is to continue my degree if i've got 3.00 and above,but now it seem like i can't do anything.It's like the world falling on me and everything i've build have been destroy and dissapear.I lost everything ,then i meet my mother to show her my result,and she was shock .She said that this was humilate and awfull,my heart stop and feels like this was my last day of happyness.I don't know what to do,or where to go.I have to start over back again,and stop playing around.'Oh tuhanku aku minta pertolongan dan petunjukmu agar aku berjaya didunia dan akhiratmu' Amin.

Talentime

The Movie called Talentime,it has been release on 26 march 2009,wednesday in malaysia cinema.First time i saw the poster and advertisement my ears can't stop listen to the music and the my mind can't stop wondering what kind of story is this.So in 31 march 2009 i invite 2 of my best friend to watch it with me.At first the movie was kind of board and mysterious,but at the middle i start to understand and get the story it trying to tell.

The movie from my opinion is great to discribe as malaysian culture movie ,an introduction to the world about our daily life and problem.Here in malaysia the main race is Indian.chinese and malay.The movie bring up the isues among this 3 race .firstly among muslim(malay) and hindu(indian),secondly is between chinese and malay which show chinese always try to keep up and be much more better then malay,lastly it shows the problem of love on different race and religion in malaysia.

The movie also show the value of love,when you love someone don't stop it because of religion or race .But choose it through your heart and soul if not you will regret about it later .The main point is we Malaysian always share the same thing and land even with different race or religion.
After i watch this movie my heart beat just can't stop beating ,it was the best romantic movie this year.I love and enjoy it.


I found a few of the soundtrack in the soundtrack album

1. O Re Piya - Rahat Fateh Ali Khan.
2. Angel - Atilia.
3. I Go - Pete Teo.
4.Pergi - Aizat.
5.Clair De Lune - Debussy.
6.The Only One - Aizat.

I never ever like hindi or tamil song before this,but after listen to the soundtrack album of the movie,i like it .It's good and peacefull,maybe some of my friend gonna says i'm insane or low class.But i don't mind it ,because in life there nothing much more better then satisfaction and peacefullness.This movie give me back the feeling that i forgot already,hopefully this time it will last longer and died gracefully.

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