Honestly,This feeling have been in me for so long.I couldn't remember when i start to have it,i don feel lonely and empty lot of time.Thing just get worst when i'm jobless and alone,life was so boring.I love attention that i've get from other people,but most of them want something in return.I do ask my self a lot ' where should i go?' or ' when this thing feeling will be gone?'.
Sometime i even believe that i have mental illness,but it maybe because i'm depress and kinda have nobody to talk with or someone that understand me.People always make promises that they can't fulfilled it to me,like i always here ,i understand you,but do they?Maybe i kinda expect more then just word,in my life i always there to support and help my friend .I'm also a good listener ,when my friend have problem i try to give them solution and accompany them to make they feel comfort.But for once where is the person that gonna be there when i need someone to talk ,hug or listen to all my problem?
Yes i do fill frustrated with my life,but i never think of suicide because it will never solve my problem.And i admit i always try to avoid meeting other people,it's because i just can't don't want to be a good listener or problem solver anymore.I want to meet and know someone that can understand me,know what i like and don't a person who's not that selfish to always think about their self only.Well maybe it's hard to find one,but i exist so there must be other out there.Oh i wish it will come true.
So please people don't judge me and think i'm and angle that gonna help you when trouble comes.I'm a human to ,i have my own need and problem.Yes i do seek help and try to change my life to avoid madness,yes i do avoid society and avoid anything that can hurt or make me feel uncomfortable .
Only god understand me,most of the time i pray and seek guide from God.God Bless Me..
Sometime i even believe that i have mental illness,but it maybe because i'm depress and kinda have nobody to talk with or someone that understand me.People always make promises that they can't fulfilled it to me,like i always here ,i understand you,but do they?Maybe i kinda expect more then just word,in my life i always there to support and help my friend .I'm also a good listener ,when my friend have problem i try to give them solution and accompany them to make they feel comfort.But for once where is the person that gonna be there when i need someone to talk ,hug or listen to all my problem?
Yes i do fill frustrated with my life,but i never think of suicide because it will never solve my problem.And i admit i always try to avoid meeting other people,it's because i just can't don't want to be a good listener or problem solver anymore.I want to meet and know someone that can understand me,know what i like and don't a person who's not that selfish to always think about their self only.Well maybe it's hard to find one,but i exist so there must be other out there.Oh i wish it will come true.
So please people don't judge me and think i'm and angle that gonna help you when trouble comes.I'm a human to ,i have my own need and problem.Yes i do seek help and try to change my life to avoid madness,yes i do avoid society and avoid anything that can hurt or make me feel uncomfortable .
Only god understand me,most of the time i pray and seek guide from God.God Bless Me..
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